This roll of memories has been in my camera for a good 4 months. The more 35mm I shoot, the more I’m reminded why I’ve always preferred the less frames I had in a medium format roll.
By nature, I’m iterative. I like to create, put things into the world, reflect, learn and experiment. Having long stretches like a 36-frame roll of film drags out this process.
Sure you may save a few bucks on costs, but I think personally I find more value in a more frequent reflection loop.
Again, I find myself visiting the same locations, shapes and themes. Over and over again.
I have a deep connection with the ocean, and water in general. I dream about it more than I can recall. I’ve mentioned on this blog previously that I have a recurring dream where I drown in the ocean.
I initially thought this was a nightmare. I would/still do feel panicked when I wake, but, more recently, I think what I’ve learned about myself is that my subconscious mind is telling me something. I need to immerse myself into what I love doing. I need to drown in my passions, otherwise I lose myself and begin to fade away.
I don’t want to fade away.
This isn’t the first time I’ve mentioned on this blog that I keep taking the same photo over and over again. I’m not sure if it’s habitual, or there’s certain imagery that I’m unconsciously drawn to.
Dimly lit tunnels, like I’m staring down the barrel of a gun. Am I more scared of the eventuality than I realise?
Cody Spencer Photography 