I take a lot of photos, but only share a fraction of what i shoot. Roughly one third make it onto this blog. There’s lots of reasons why, it all depends on the image.
Here’s some I’ve decided to share. Maybe i should do this more often…..
Something was said to me recently that actually cut through and stuck.
A friend said to me,
” Think back to all the times you’ve been in situations like this, when have you ever failed?”.
The answer was……….I haven’t.
Am i shifting my state of mind? By default I’m filled with a lot doubt about what I’m capable of, what i know and what i can do. Self esteem through the floor, usually. Although i tend to display confidence, it’s usually superficial. I don’t take compliments. I can’t.
But, that stuck.
The question is…….am i afraid of letting go of my insecurities? As odd as that sounds i have found that my doubt is what drives me to do better. Am i afraid of becoming too comfortable and then slipping?
Perhaps, or perhaps it’s time for me to let go.
This photo currently sums up my current feelings, flawed, yet me.
I found an old roll of film i had used to test a camera. An old one from 2015.
I find myself going through a strange sense of guilt as i look over old photos. (Although these are technically new).
The feeling of guilt comes flooding in with the rush of nostalgia i feel. ” Why didn’t i remember this earlier?”.