I take a lot of photos, but only share a fraction of what i shoot. Roughly one third make it onto this blog. There’s lots of reasons why, it all depends on the image.
Here’s some I’ve decided to share. Maybe i should do this more often…..
Month: April 2017
Flawed.
Something was said to me recently that actually cut through and stuck.
A friend said to me,
” Think back to all the times you’ve been in situations like this, when have you ever failed?”.
The answer was……….I haven’t.
Am i shifting my state of mind? By default I’m filled with a lot doubt about what I’m capable of, what i know and what i can do. Self esteem through the floor, usually. Although i tend to display confidence, it’s usually superficial. I don’t take compliments. I can’t.
But, that stuck.
The question is…….am i afraid of letting go of my insecurities? As odd as that sounds i have found that my doubt is what drives me to do better. Am i afraid of becoming too comfortable and then slipping?
Perhaps, or perhaps it’s time for me to let go.
This photo currently sums up my current feelings, flawed, yet me.
Love.
Melbourne. 2017.
The Last Roll of 2015.
I found an old roll of film i had used to test a camera. An old one from 2015.
I find myself going through a strange sense of guilt as i look over old photos. (Although these are technically new).
The feeling of guilt comes flooding in with the rush of nostalgia i feel. ” Why didn’t i remember this earlier?”.
Bittersweet.
Melbourne. 2017.
Cody Spencer Photography 