I’ve been pretty quiet over the months. This doesn’t mean i haven’t been busy! I created my first darkroom print late last night. Still learning a lot, but it was a really rewarding experience. There should be some more images coming up on my blog soon. Life has taken a sudden busy spike, but should stabilise soon. In the meantime check out my first ever darkroom print.
Something was said to me recently that actually cut through and stuck.
A friend said to me,
” Think back to all the times you’ve been in situations like this, when have you ever failed?”.
The answer was……….I haven’t.
Am i shifting my state of mind? By default I’m filled with a lot doubt about what I’m capable of, what i know and what i can do. Self esteem through the floor, usually. Although i tend to display confidence, it’s usually superficial. I don’t take compliments. I can’t.
But, that stuck.
The question is…….am i afraid of letting go of my insecurities? As odd as that sounds i have found that my doubt is what drives me to do better. Am i afraid of becoming too comfortable and then slipping?
Perhaps, or perhaps it’s time for me to let go.
This photo currently sums up my current feelings, flawed, yet me.